Rumor Has It

Ok, here's what happened...

After Blue Jeans left, I was really quite distressed and it went on for several days. Every time I thought about him I cried, even though I knew that he had gone to a great home. I was fortunate to have met the adopters and truly believe that Blue Jeans would be happier with them than at my house. He wanted to be an only dog and that would not be the case if I had kept him.

So what, then, was causing such torment inside of me? Well, I sat down and figured it out. I knew that it was best for Blue Jeans that he go to this new home, but... what did Blue Jeans think? I may be anthropomorphizing by asking that question; but, we don't really know to what extent dogs think, or feel. Did he think I had abandoned him? Or, worse still, did he think that he had done something wrong to cause us to give him up? Not knowing the answers to these questions was what was tearing me up inside and the reason for my daily tears.

About a week ago, I was standing in front of the bathroom mirror trying to get ready for work. It was difficult to put in my contacts and put on makeup because my eyes were red and wet. That's when my dog Rumor came in. I looked into his big brown eyes and asked "Rumor, help me understand...what was it like for you when you left your foster home and came to live with us? Did you feel you had been abandoned?" "No, because I knew that I was right where I was supposed to be" was the answer that immediately came back to me.

Did I experience animal communication? Am I crazy? Or, did what I already know to be true just finally come to the surface? I don't have these answers. All I can tell you is what happened. And, that since then, I have felt a sense of gratitude and relief...and I have been able to move forward.

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